might I be pregnant?!

 Hello. Self. Brent and I have been trying to get pregnant since June of 2025. Based purely on my desire to have a little buddy for Jude- which is a little debatable in its validity of a reason. 

No dice since June. However now, I am feeling some feelings that make me wonder, am I? of course I think this every month. This months feelings:

-feeling nauseous when I have low blood sugar

-I ovulated several days early which feels notable for some reason. but it really isn't?

-I'm hungry and its very early in the morning. that feels unusual.

-tired. but this happens every month. this is not unusual to this month and the above reasons are. Jude wakes up usually 2x a night. so it makes sense. I go to bed 11pm ish or so sometimes midnight. wake up 1am and 530am usually to get a Jude a bottle. Then fully awake sometimes between 7-8am and sometimes I just stay awake after the 530 wake up. 

This is unrelated to the pregnancy thoughts, but I am out of a pump at the moment and going MDI. I went very low yesterday. 31. very unpleasant for all involved. then rocketed to very high. 330. stayed in the 150s most of the night, which frankly was better than i expected given no lantus. but cant be good for me. My plan was to back up on the dash pump since i have a lot of them in storage, but i can't get the Dash pdm to turn on. bother. so humalog shots it is. The companies are kindly overnighting me some emergency omnipod 5 pumps and a new PDM. but i wont get them for another day i think. so now im researching the complicated interwebs about using my dash pumps with the DIY algorithm called Loop. But it is intense. you must build your own app. theres a lot of information to sift through. we shall see. though i have been wanting to try it out for a while. my current14 day blood sugar average is 130 or so, sometimes 120. but i want around 100 would be ideal. 

15 month Jude things

Look at him hanging from the gymnastics bar!! I don't know if all babies can do this, but it is so cute. We had his 15 month doctor appointment today and it seems like he is a bit delayed in talking. He rarely says mama- and its debatable if that is what he is saying. But he DEFINITELY has said thank you multiple times in this darling rather inaudible way that sounds something like eng-oo. But other than that he is growing in all the usual ways. Poor little guy had 4 shots and it was so sad. I cried a little. and thats fine.

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a little, ok maybe a lot, of something after all this time

 So many things have happened since Jude was born. of course. close to 15 months ago. Looking back through all the photos makes me feel very grateful for a loving family and kind life and may I say, such beautiful children. Lucy was baptized the same day as Jude was blessed. I remember it being a really lovely day full of the warmth of God's love and family love. I entered the church a smidge later than I was wanting and there wasn't enough room to sit with my own Dunn family! So I squeezed in by Kathy and the Mouritsens. I don't quite know if this is kosher, but we shall do it anyhow, this is what I remembered of Brent's lovely baby blessing of Jude:

Testimony of Jesus Christ, grow to know Him and believe in Him. He is the Savior of the world and your personal Savior that through atoning power you will grow line upon line into a man of God that you were sent to be. Bless you to know who you are- a son of God. Plaed on this earth to learn and grow and serve. bless you with charity to others. You were blessed with a great mother with empathy and kindness. Blessed with great grandparents love of missionary work, family history and the temple. Bless you to be willing to share the good news of Christ with others and to learn of the work that your Father in Heaven has for you as His son and a holder of the priesthood. Bless you with humility to learn from you parents and siblings. Bless you with obedience to the laws of God. and most importantly, bless you to experience the grace of the Savior.

Lucy's baptism was simply superb. My brother John said the closing prayer and it felt so John as he started the prayer with a Hello Heavenly Father! 

I felt a lot of the Savior's love and I think Lucy did too. at the end of the day she was in tears because she didn't want to day to end. 

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