Parenting

I feel anxious about riding the fine line between giving my kids too much attention and not enough.

I need to play with my children, give them a free childhood, let them experience enough boredom, talk to them while they eat their lunch. But at what point am I giving them too much attention? I also need to teach them they can't play all day every day. Chores are required with life. I just read Lucy 4 books, if I want/need to do the dishes instead of read a 5th book I shouldn't feel like her childhood is slipping through my fingers. I find it hard. 

Ella had her last day of preschool yesterday. They sang songs for the parents and I felt like I was the only one crying about how sweet and smart and cute Eleanor is. Though I can't have been the only one! 

Lucy is very excited to go to preschool in the fall- I'm nervous about it because she's not potty trained yet, but I know she would ADORE school- her birthday is in the end of September, so she would have 3 years of preschool before kindergarten. we shall see.

They put the shingles on our house today! I'm a little bummed our house doesn't have a "cuter" shape- but whatever. It will look fabulous. I'm thinking a deep blue exterior with white molding around those windows and along the roof line.

It's been raining a ton lately. look at these clouds we saw today! 

Barnyard Babies & Weight loss

We went to the Clark Historic Farm this weekend where they had a baby animal petting zoo, pony rides, blow up slides, farm games like cornhole, and best of all for Ella, a cotton candy stand (she cared a little bit about the baby zebra... but mostly the cotton candy.). I thought it was so magical. I forced Brent to go, which I regret. ha. he was like Mr. Mad the whole time, well... i'm not giving him enough credit... he doesn't like animals and he doesn't like being outside in the sun doing what he thinks is stuff that's too expensive and doesn't matter- so of course he hated it, but he came and a thank you for that.

Lucy was in love with this lady dressed up like a fairy princess who had a little white pony with a unicorn horn. Lucy asked her, "Princess? is this YOUR unicorn??!?!" I should've taken a picture... but I was trying to be in the moment, I guess? whatever. it was lovely.

yet again, i am trying my dangest to lose a little weight. It lit a fire in me when I went to New York at the beginning of April with Brent to see the musical Hamilton-which was VERY GOOD by the way. It lived up to the hype. Anyway, I was with two of my high school ballet friends who have amazing bodies and I was feeling uncomfortable with myself. I think my body is of course fabulous, but I'd like to feel better with myself and that's ok. I weighed in 2-3 weeks ago at 156 and now I'm 149. Which I feel great about. Not that the numbers on the scale are the end all be all, but they are the easiest to measure my progress so I feel ok about sharing that sort of thing. My diet is going very good at home- I'm even eating separate dinners sometimes- which I thought I would never do- but it's too hard to get my kids to eat all the same things as me. But when I go to a social event its hard! We went to Mari and DJ's birthday party and I was planning to only have 1 piece of pizza and no cake. But of course I had 2 pizza slices and some cake. it's fine its fine.

Some people emotional eat or social eat... but I honestly think my issue is I LOVE GOOD TASTING THINGS. I didn't feel like I needed to socially eat that second piece of pizza- but dominoes pizza is so good. and the cake was very yummy. anyhow. here we are. I'm working on it and that is good enough.

(this upcoming weekend is Ella's spring dance performance and I am so excited to see her. She's been practicing at home and is quite pumped about the gloves she gets to wear for one of her dances. She dances to Cruisin for a Bruisin (which is kinda a sassy number) and the Rainbow song from the kids dance movie Leap.)

I'm also planting a bunch of flowers this week and I'm excited to see how they'll look and hopefully they'll grow good. zinnias and petunias